“Last night, I travelled from Allahabad to Delhi in an overnight train. When I entered the compartment and reached my berth (a lower berth), I realised that the berths above me, beside me, opposite me, diagonally opposite me had all male passengers. This made me a little uncomfortable, as it always does, but I told myself that I shouldn’t let paranoia get the better of me. I fell asleep soon.
I woke up suddenly in the middle of the night. The passenger on the berth right above mine (perhaps in his early thirties, who had called me “gudiya” when i was setting up my bed) was sitting on my seat. He was sitting right next to my legs, and I could feel his hand right above my right knee. Though I was aware this was strange, my first instinct was still to try and justify this in favour of the man. “Maybe he needed support to sit up”, “Maybe he kept his hand on my thigh by mistake” or “Maybe he has nodded off”. I opened my eyes slightly and saw that he was wide awake and was watching something on his phone. Just as I began to convince myself that it must have been a careless mistake, his hand began to slide up my thigh. There was no room for doubt. I immediately said “aap kya kar rahe hain?” (“what are you doing?”) in a voice that carried both anger and shock. He said “sorry sorry” and left. I pondered as to what my next course of action should be for the next two hours. I thought about all the times I’ve been sexually harassed before, and all the times I’ve heard of the same happening to my friends. I thought about the regret I had each time that I didn’t call the harasser out or drag him to the police station.
I set out to look for the TTE (Travelling Ticket Examiner). He listened to me patiently and asked me “Aapne tab hi kyu nahi bola? Aapne thappad kyun nahi mara? Ab kya ho sakta hai?” (“why didnt you say anything earlier? Why didn’t you slap the man? What can we do now?”). A passenger sitting right there, who had overheard the entire conversation, said “aap akeli travel kar rahi hain? Isliye”. Thankfully, my dad had told me long back that a few police officers always travel on the train to take care of untoward incidents. I told the TTE that I wanted the police to be called.
The police arrived soon and woke up this man. I told him to sit in front of me and tell me how his hand managed to reach my thigh in the middle of the night. His excuse was that he had fallen asleep while sitting on my seat (even though his entire berth was empty) and must have put it there by mistake. This obviously couldn’t be true, since I distinctly remembered that he was watching something on his phone. I told the police that I wanted to file a case. The man started apologising again and again and said stuff like “main married hoon” (I am married), “meri wife ki photo mere phone pe hai” (I can show you my wife’s picture), “mere saath kabhi police ka koi chakkar nahi hua hai” (I have never been to the police station before) and “meri zindagi kharab ho jayegi” (My life will be ruined). I felt pity and confusion weaken my anger–the same feelings that have prevented me (and perhaps many other girls) from filing cases many times. I decided that no matter what, I have to see this through to the end. By this time, the other passengers had also started egging me on.
When we arrived at the New Delhi station, the police on the train escorted this man to the police station, and asked me to come along to register the FIR. The process took more than two hours. The police also dropped hints that it would be in my best interests to take the case back. Meanwhile, the man’s family came and started pressurising me to take the case back. They followed me till my car, and didn’t let me get inside. In the afternoon, I waited for an hour for the police to arrive with the FIR at Tis Hazari and then we shuffled from courtroom to courtoom to record my Section 164 statement, which also took about two hours. I was, however, happy to hear the Lady Magistrate firmly advise me to not come under pressure from the accused’s family.
This is for every single time that I, and so many of my friends, held our silence due to fear, underconfidence or even pity. This is the one time I didn’t freeze and I’m glad. I just want to say–we, as girls, have an equal right to travel by trains, whether they are overnight or not and whether we are travelling alone or not, and to feel safe while doing so. If such an incident happens, please do not let it go. Immediately approach the TT and ask him to call the police. There is ALWAYS police present on the trains. File a complaint and ask them to take the person in question off the train at the very next station. This shouldn’t be happening, and when it does, we must not let it slide by. #Iwillnotletitgo“
Submitted By – Ayushi Agarwal
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